Thursday, November 13, 2008
Attitude Adjustments Don't Just Come from Within
I love Miss Me's comment about energivores! That is TOTALLY my obstacle as well. Awhile back I went on a rant about a few people in my life putting me down. Energy stealers is exactly what those people are like. I made a decision to stay away from one of them as much as I can. And another one who I can't exactly get away from... well, I'm just taking it one day at a time and holding tight to my "energivore repellant."
So I thoroughly believe in the idea of "ask the universe and you shall receive." On Wednesday Nov 5 I asked for an attitude adjustment. On Saturday Nov 8 I went old school hometown bound and hooked up with some people I hadn't seen in years. Some since high school. Others since college.
I was pretty anxious about the whole thing. For a number of reasons. Primarily because it was a memorial for my friend who died in April and I was feeling that there was A LOT of unresolved crap between all of us. And then it was good. It was fun. It was comfortable. No drama. Lots of laughter.
Then I spent some extended time talking to one person who gave me that attitude adjustment. Effortlessly. It wasn't anything special he said or did. Because actually we had some pretty heavy convos about the past. Part of the goodness was probably getting some stuff off my chest and just talking about things that had gone unsaid for so long.
But mostly it was about receiving compassion and kindness from someone I realized I cared about. What a beautiful experience. After so many months of my soul being sucked dry by all these caustic vampires that I feel I've been in contact with, I got the gift I had asked for. I only hope I gave back as much in return. Goodness knows, I don't think I could live with myself if I thought I took from someone else.
I still have a way to go. I think attitude adjustments must be like weight loss. It just doesn't happen overnight. But I'm pretty open to positive thinking now and I can't even express how awesome that feels.
So I thoroughly believe in the idea of "ask the universe and you shall receive." On Wednesday Nov 5 I asked for an attitude adjustment. On Saturday Nov 8 I went old school hometown bound and hooked up with some people I hadn't seen in years. Some since high school. Others since college.
I was pretty anxious about the whole thing. For a number of reasons. Primarily because it was a memorial for my friend who died in April and I was feeling that there was A LOT of unresolved crap between all of us. And then it was good. It was fun. It was comfortable. No drama. Lots of laughter.
Then I spent some extended time talking to one person who gave me that attitude adjustment. Effortlessly. It wasn't anything special he said or did. Because actually we had some pretty heavy convos about the past. Part of the goodness was probably getting some stuff off my chest and just talking about things that had gone unsaid for so long.
But mostly it was about receiving compassion and kindness from someone I realized I cared about. What a beautiful experience. After so many months of my soul being sucked dry by all these caustic vampires that I feel I've been in contact with, I got the gift I had asked for. I only hope I gave back as much in return. Goodness knows, I don't think I could live with myself if I thought I took from someone else.
I still have a way to go. I think attitude adjustments must be like weight loss. It just doesn't happen overnight. But I'm pretty open to positive thinking now and I can't even express how awesome that feels.
// posted by Stephanie Cake @ 11/13/2008 08:26:00 PM 
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