Stephanie Cake

Sheist. I can't believe another year has passed by.
I'm feeling super melancholy right now. I need to put on a happy face. I have a gig writing some ID for a motivational speaker who just wrote a book about positive attitudes, of all things. I gotta practice what I'm a-gonna be preachin'.

For the record, here is what is sucking at the moment:

• My cat is dying of cancer. It was confirmed before Xmas. Not sure how long he's got but for now he sleeps most of the day (which isn't all that much of a change) and eats his baby food with a chip on his shoulder. He also has been drooling all over the place and the other day he chewed on something which resulted in gross bloody drool. Its downright pitiful.
• I'm broke. Shit ass broke. The mortgage is due. Its $950. I have approximately $200 to my name. Don't need to be a mathametician to figure out the issues there.
• Despite slaving my ass off in December for one of the worst clients Howard and I somehow manage to always get saddled with, I made zero placements for him (out of 6 openings). This contributes to problem #2 exponentially.
• I need to finish a costuming project for my Persian dance girl. I have sorta kinda missed a deadline and really should be sewing right now. But it will be the 12th and 13th costumes I've made for her and at the moment I'm really not all that motivated.
• Howard and I have another client who owes us collectively about 4 grand. They have not been paying up. Back to problem #2.
• I need to lose about 30 pounds. Its a wonder I can be so fucking fat when I'm so fucking broke.

The resolutions.... It would be remiss of me not to list the plans I have. I mean, its a new year afterall. Once I get my act together I truly intend to get these accomplished. Fer real. No joke. I mean it.

• Lose 30 pounds. Gotta do it. Not doing it wouldn't be prudent. Fucking fat ass no more.
• Make better business decisions. Procrastination is totally my enemy. That's gotta put a dent in my sizeable debt.
• Downsize. I have too much crap. It depresses me and makes life too complicated. No normal person needs all the shit I have.
• Go to Prague. Ok, so not really a resolution but if I can take care of that so-broke-I'm-nearly-homeless problem, I have plans to take a trip with my friend Kate in the spring.