Friday, January 29, 2010
Tender Intensity... I will muster it
I'm usually such a nasty skeptic... wanting to believe in magic but generally just complaining and phutzing and harboring negativity. However, when Rob Brezsny issues brilliance such as this... my god, I want to be a believer. In the worst kind of way....
Libra Horoscope for week of January 28, 2010
My theory is that right now the whole world is in ♥ love ♥ with you. In some places, this simmering adoration is bordering on infatuation. Creatures great and small are more apt than usual to recognize what's beautiful and original about you. As a result, wonders and marvels are likely to coalesce in your vicinity. Is there anything you can do to ensure that events unfold in ways that will yield maximum benefits for everyone concerned? Yes: Be yourself with as much tender intensity as you can muster.
Libra Horoscope for week of January 28, 2010
My theory is that right now the whole world is in ♥ love ♥ with you. In some places, this simmering adoration is bordering on infatuation. Creatures great and small are more apt than usual to recognize what's beautiful and original about you. As a result, wonders and marvels are likely to coalesce in your vicinity. Is there anything you can do to ensure that events unfold in ways that will yield maximum benefits for everyone concerned? Yes: Be yourself with as much tender intensity as you can muster.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Crisis averted.
Sometimes the universe hands you a golden nugget of wonderfulness. My job entails much writing and research about boring topics such as state and federal credit legislation, mortgage industry licensing and our current economic conditions. Needless to say none of this has ever been particularly fulfilling.
But today I randomly stumbled across the work of Jonathan Jarvis. He's a really great visual designer and he has created a brilliant presentation about the credit crisis.
Learn in 11 minutes what I have spent 2 years dicking around with...
But today I randomly stumbled across the work of Jonathan Jarvis. He's a really great visual designer and he has created a brilliant presentation about the credit crisis.
Learn in 11 minutes what I have spent 2 years dicking around with...
The Crisis of Credit Visualized from Jonathan Jarvis on Vimeo.
Monday, January 11, 2010
Read or Die
I remember when I was a teenager we used to scrawl "Sk8 or Die" all over the place. um, yeah, I hung out with a bunch of skate punks. duh. I couldn't care less about skaters these days (although Tony Hawk is aging nicely, no?) but I do still care about making counter culture statements so I have co-opted the sentiment for my own geeky needs.
I went through a period of not reading which is very, very unlike me. When I have to fill out those "About Me" things... for instance on certain social networking websites... I always say "I love books like I love air" in the "favorite books" section. Picking a favorite book feels almost sacriligious. But I digress. I have jumped back on the reading horse with a vengenance and I feel much more well rounded. More complete. Less like I want to commit hari kari when the going gets tough. Hence the catchphrase.
Since the holidays I have read a pile and I thought I would share a thought or two:
Wishin' and Hopin': A Christmas Story by Wally Lamb - This one was really cute and lighthearted. Wally Lamb is an incredible writer. Its about a school year in the life of a kid in the 1960's who is related to Annette Funicello
Company by Max Barry - This was a little less great than all the hype about it but overall it was enjoyable. I won't give away the twist but basically its about a recent biz school grad who gets a job at a company and subsequently discovers that no one knows that the company does or sells.
Jennifer Government by Max Barry - Jennifer Gov't was based on an interesting idea and it was pretty well written but I guess a lot of it was predictable, kind of like Company. I think Max Barry has some original concepts but somehow the execution gets boring.
Generation A by Douglas Coupland - I love Douglas Coupland. This wasn't as fabulous as Microserfs but it was pretty darn good. I read some reviews that said the "themes" were too blatant and kind of shoved down the reader's throat but I really didn't mind. The characters were well developed and I thought the blatantness of the themes actually lent a sense of realism. Its about the not-too-distant future where bees have become extinct and 5 people who randomly get stung.
The Average American Male by Chad Kultgen - AAM is some of the most offensive material I have read since Tucker Max. But I couldn't put it down. I would be horrified... but probably less than suprised... is this is really the kind of stuff that goes on in the minds of men. I'm not sure how/why this kind of misogyny and immaturity is so enticing. I guess its like a trainwreck - you don't want to admit it, but you can't look away.
Apathy and Other Small Victories by Paul Neilan - Not earth shattering but a pretty good read. Pretty chuckle worthy throughout. Its about the hijinks of a slacker who you sort of want to hate but also kind of feel sorry for and a sort of murder mystery he gets himself involved in.
Bitter is the New Black by Jen Lancaster - I just started this one and I have to admit I resisted it for a long time. I thought it was chick lit - in the vein of Jennifer Weiner (who is a great writer but I'm just tired of chick lit). But it turns out she is more like a super snarky Laurie Notaro or a much funnier Chelsea Handler.
I went through a period of not reading which is very, very unlike me. When I have to fill out those "About Me" things... for instance on certain social networking websites... I always say "I love books like I love air" in the "favorite books" section. Picking a favorite book feels almost sacriligious. But I digress. I have jumped back on the reading horse with a vengenance and I feel much more well rounded. More complete. Less like I want to commit hari kari when the going gets tough. Hence the catchphrase.
Since the holidays I have read a pile and I thought I would share a thought or two:
Wishin' and Hopin': A Christmas Story by Wally Lamb - This one was really cute and lighthearted. Wally Lamb is an incredible writer. Its about a school year in the life of a kid in the 1960's who is related to Annette Funicello
Company by Max Barry - This was a little less great than all the hype about it but overall it was enjoyable. I won't give away the twist but basically its about a recent biz school grad who gets a job at a company and subsequently discovers that no one knows that the company does or sells.
Jennifer Government by Max Barry - Jennifer Gov't was based on an interesting idea and it was pretty well written but I guess a lot of it was predictable, kind of like Company. I think Max Barry has some original concepts but somehow the execution gets boring.
Generation A by Douglas Coupland - I love Douglas Coupland. This wasn't as fabulous as Microserfs but it was pretty darn good. I read some reviews that said the "themes" were too blatant and kind of shoved down the reader's throat but I really didn't mind. The characters were well developed and I thought the blatantness of the themes actually lent a sense of realism. Its about the not-too-distant future where bees have become extinct and 5 people who randomly get stung.
The Average American Male by Chad Kultgen - AAM is some of the most offensive material I have read since Tucker Max. But I couldn't put it down. I would be horrified... but probably less than suprised... is this is really the kind of stuff that goes on in the minds of men. I'm not sure how/why this kind of misogyny and immaturity is so enticing. I guess its like a trainwreck - you don't want to admit it, but you can't look away.
Apathy and Other Small Victories by Paul Neilan - Not earth shattering but a pretty good read. Pretty chuckle worthy throughout. Its about the hijinks of a slacker who you sort of want to hate but also kind of feel sorry for and a sort of murder mystery he gets himself involved in.
Bitter is the New Black by Jen Lancaster - I just started this one and I have to admit I resisted it for a long time. I thought it was chick lit - in the vein of Jennifer Weiner (who is a great writer but I'm just tired of chick lit). But it turns out she is more like a super snarky Laurie Notaro or a much funnier Chelsea Handler.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
2009 Scrapbook
Ok, ok... I know I said I wasn't going to dwell on 2009 (I really wanted to say 'masturbate about 2009' again but I know will make my mother squeal with discomfort.... but now I said it anyway so pipe down mom)... however for posterity's sake, I collected my Facebook statuses from 2009 and have added some commentary. This is really just for me. Not for anyone else. Nostalgia gets the best of me sometimes.
To sum it up, 2009 was full of snark and full of complaints. It is also clear that the year started off with a bang and slowly dwindled to exhaustion. There were a few statuses I didn't include from earlier in the year but its obvious from my lack of interwebs activity that something was up by the end of the summer.
I never really wrote about it and in hindsight its not even worth summarizing. The lesson I learned is that I never want work to take over my life like that again. I like my job and I adore my coworkers but my health and sanity and the health/sanity of my family is far more important than working 25 hours a day, 8 days a week. 'nuff said.
January 2009
was surprised to wake at the crack of noon with only a lil' hangover. Right on, 2009! (hah! little did I know)
is ready to kick Blender in the crotch. Stupid software. feh. (I gave up by the way... it was all part of an ill-conceived and short lived plan to learn digital animation)
New year, same old trip to the emergency room... klutzy kids & ice sk8s don't mix, mom. (the pre-teen years were rife with injury. hopefully as he becomes a teenager he will prove to be sturdier.)
is irascible. (i love a sassy vocab word)
thinks "yer mama" is a great come-back -- especially when you're insulting your own kid. (this is probably proof I am a terrible parent. but ya know what? if its wrong, I don't wanna be right.)
is busy pouring 80 proof down her throat hole. (I think 2009 turned out quit boozey. oh well, no harm done)
just returned from the first trip to NC this week. FIRST?...what?! (went to NC for work. ppl thought I meant I'd never been there before)
To clarify.... not the first trip ever. the first trip THIS WEEK. ;o) (went back 3 days later to visit family/friends)
is packing for this week's Carolina Trip Deux.
is heading off to a 3 day weekend... that probably involves 4 days of driving. hah!
might have a Wii-related injury. (who knew that pretend boxing could really kick one's ass?)
is westward bound very soon. yipeee! (convention in Vegas for work)
"Watch out Vegas! Here I come!!!" (hah! little did I know)
narrowly missed escaping the crappy weather. Too bad for you, East Coast suckahs!!! (home got an epic icestorm while I was in Vegas. mom and Connor were stuck at the house.)
thinks a tripled decker grilled cheese might not have been a good idea. (it wasn't)
February 2009
crashed and burned, Vegas style. (came down with the plague on the flight home from Vegas)
is still sick. no fair.
is getting better. Thank goodness for broad spectrum antibiotics. (Vegas cooties... doctor didn't even know what it was. ewwww.)
loved Coraline, despite Dakota Fanning's annoyingness.
passed the Washington DFI LO exam. I'm more awesomer than you.
Thievery Corp + Nickodemus... woot!!!
March 2009
is hating on the nor'easter.. damn you infernal snow!!!
took no part in the snow, other than driving to work in it.
is counting down the days 'til sxsw. yay!
has the best mom EVER. Really. Your mom can't even compare. Sorry. (she bought me a Kindle)
is on her way to Austin. Woohoo!!!
is tired from her rock-n-roll lifestyle. hah! (sxsw was a blast)
is wishin' and hopin' and thinkin' and prayin', plannin' and dreamin'... (had an AWESOME job oppt'y. sadly it was a bust.)
April 2009
"um, WHY do you continue to doubt my brilliance? I'm right every time!" (don't remember what this was about... but really does it matter? the truth is all that matters)
saw a rainbow today. :)
is so disappointed by the ShamWOW guy. Why, Vince? WHY?
is having a pile of beverage. Mondays are the best for getting tore up, no? (this was the beginning of my Summer '09 Odyssey of Alcohol)
would just as soon stab anyone at her web hosting service as look at them - 7 yrs worth of work samples, 4 years of blog entries, email access, & FTP access GONE like it never existed. AND they won't respond to my whining. I hope they rot in hell. (I whined more. they finally restored my crap.)
cough cough oink. j/k! (thought i was being the utmost in funny funny. but my H1N1 H'ween costume was even funnier.)
needs sleep and lots of it. Any insomnia cures that don't require copious amounts of booze on a school nite? (but as I proved time and time again, copious amounts of booze are sometimes the way to go)
May 2009
is now losing sleep over the turkey/Ambien/Nyquil/Benedryl/Bacardi/Planter's/milk cocktail y'all are trying to serve up. shudder.
it is impossible for this day to be any more of a cluster than it has become at this point. (this was increasingly the sentiment of many days in the 2nd half of '09)
is flummoxed by her sudden increase in snack-related injuries.
has learned there are some things that should not be cooked in the crockpot. (some sort of chicken thing my friend gave me the recipe for)
played a no-holds-barred, cut throat game of Bananagrams tonight.
purchased shallow and pointless hair products online this evening. (I won't lie. it was Bump-its.)
has an ouchie sunburn on her ginormous forehead. sweet.
demon pollen! curses! thou hast smited me with your golden hammer!
June 2009
LOVES it when Southwest dangles a dingfare carrot that misses my travel dates by one day. evil bastards.
am I the only one totally grossed out by those ExtenZe commercials?
thinks everyone should be allowed a lil narcissism and the occasional delusion of grandeur.
Humidty! Curses! All my doors are sticking and my hair is bigger than the doorways. :(
Hon Fest was fun... hon. ;o)
is drinking shots on a school nite just to prove a point. thus far.... unproven point 1: Stephanie 0 (Summer '09 Alcohol Odyssey continues...)
dying to sucker punch everyone I know who is on vacation right now. i don't get no stinking vacation this year. pout. whine.
feeling crappy...certain ppl better not have given me swine flu (met friends in DC for nite of fun - 48 hrs later they had a confirmed case of the pig flu. aiieeee!)
July 2009
feeling marginally better - probably just hayfever like I originally suspected. But is it possible to get a mild case of H1N1? Like the Piglet Flu?
anyone care to join my support group? "Sad Chumps Who Are Spending July 3 Between Cubicle Walls" (I was really bitter about this)
Weekend on Solomon's Island wasn't enough to recharge the batteries. Need at least a week or two... or maybe four... I should have four weeks' vacation shouldn't I? YEAH, I should! (Solomon's w/ Mr. Cake was really nice though. I really am a bitcher and moaner, aren't I?)
thought it was Wednesday most of the day.... the discovery that its only Tuesday is a sad epiphany indeed.
August 2009
Is a slamdunk in Teen Jeopardy much of a victory when you're pushing 36?
anxiously awaiting a call about axle replacement... how much can that cost? I mean REALLY? (it really cost THAT much)
An epic treasure hunt? I like the sound of that. (I had read about a treasure hunt hosted by some distillery back in the '70s)
Anyone know how much a weekend @ Shepard Pratt costs? And do they have any mental health programs that include cocktails & foot rubs? No reason... just askin' for a friend. ;o) (my summer really was quite stressful. Little did I know.)
"When plans fail, blaze new trails." Thank you Magic Hat bottlecap.
September 2009
Back from Sactown. It was a lovely wedding! (it really was)
Hello beer. tonight you light up my life. you are the wind beneath my wings. the day to my night. the oh so right to my so, so wrong. please don't change a thing. (someone gave me crap about this post. I replied "but you haven't heard my ode to vodka!")
It was a good day. (one out of 364 ain't bad I s'pose. haha!)
two words: bubblegum vodka. (omg. yes. it really is that good.)
October 2009
is losing her voice. Many now have cause for celebration.
is a french press convert. adios, Mr. Coffee.
(the irony in my Oct posts is that you would never known I had walked through the 10th circle of hell without coming up for air. 2009 in summary sucked for this very reason. But 2009 taught me a lot about myself. And I'm proud of that.)
November 2009
i am a rock. i am an island. (and I was exhausted. I don't even remember November 2009)
December 2009
snow. feh.
Someone pressed >>FFWD on my 2009 mix tape... somewhere around the "June" track.
(That about sums it up.)
To sum it up, 2009 was full of snark and full of complaints. It is also clear that the year started off with a bang and slowly dwindled to exhaustion. There were a few statuses I didn't include from earlier in the year but its obvious from my lack of interwebs activity that something was up by the end of the summer.
I never really wrote about it and in hindsight its not even worth summarizing. The lesson I learned is that I never want work to take over my life like that again. I like my job and I adore my coworkers but my health and sanity and the health/sanity of my family is far more important than working 25 hours a day, 8 days a week. 'nuff said.
January 2009
was surprised to wake at the crack of noon with only a lil' hangover. Right on, 2009! (hah! little did I know)
is ready to kick Blender in the crotch. Stupid software. feh. (I gave up by the way... it was all part of an ill-conceived and short lived plan to learn digital animation)
New year, same old trip to the emergency room... klutzy kids & ice sk8s don't mix, mom. (the pre-teen years were rife with injury. hopefully as he becomes a teenager he will prove to be sturdier.)
is irascible. (i love a sassy vocab word)
thinks "yer mama" is a great come-back -- especially when you're insulting your own kid. (this is probably proof I am a terrible parent. but ya know what? if its wrong, I don't wanna be right.)
is busy pouring 80 proof down her throat hole. (I think 2009 turned out quit boozey. oh well, no harm done)
just returned from the first trip to NC this week. FIRST?...what?! (went to NC for work. ppl thought I meant I'd never been there before)
To clarify.... not the first trip ever. the first trip THIS WEEK. ;o) (went back 3 days later to visit family/friends)
is packing for this week's Carolina Trip Deux.
is heading off to a 3 day weekend... that probably involves 4 days of driving. hah!
might have a Wii-related injury. (who knew that pretend boxing could really kick one's ass?)
is westward bound very soon. yipeee! (convention in Vegas for work)
"Watch out Vegas! Here I come!!!" (hah! little did I know)
narrowly missed escaping the crappy weather. Too bad for you, East Coast suckahs!!! (home got an epic icestorm while I was in Vegas. mom and Connor were stuck at the house.)
thinks a tripled decker grilled cheese might not have been a good idea. (it wasn't)
February 2009
crashed and burned, Vegas style. (came down with the plague on the flight home from Vegas)
is still sick. no fair.
is getting better. Thank goodness for broad spectrum antibiotics. (Vegas cooties... doctor didn't even know what it was. ewwww.)
loved Coraline, despite Dakota Fanning's annoyingness.
passed the Washington DFI LO exam. I'm more awesomer than you.
Thievery Corp + Nickodemus... woot!!!
March 2009
is hating on the nor'easter.. damn you infernal snow!!!
took no part in the snow, other than driving to work in it.
is counting down the days 'til sxsw. yay!
has the best mom EVER. Really. Your mom can't even compare. Sorry. (she bought me a Kindle)
is on her way to Austin. Woohoo!!!
is tired from her rock-n-roll lifestyle. hah! (sxsw was a blast)
is wishin' and hopin' and thinkin' and prayin', plannin' and dreamin'... (had an AWESOME job oppt'y. sadly it was a bust.)
April 2009
"um, WHY do you continue to doubt my brilliance? I'm right every time!" (don't remember what this was about... but really does it matter? the truth is all that matters)
saw a rainbow today. :)
is so disappointed by the ShamWOW guy. Why, Vince? WHY?
is having a pile of beverage. Mondays are the best for getting tore up, no? (this was the beginning of my Summer '09 Odyssey of Alcohol)
would just as soon stab anyone at her web hosting service as look at them - 7 yrs worth of work samples, 4 years of blog entries, email access, & FTP access GONE like it never existed. AND they won't respond to my whining. I hope they rot in hell. (I whined more. they finally restored my crap.)
cough cough oink. j/k! (thought i was being the utmost in funny funny. but my H1N1 H'ween costume was even funnier.)
needs sleep and lots of it. Any insomnia cures that don't require copious amounts of booze on a school nite? (but as I proved time and time again, copious amounts of booze are sometimes the way to go)
May 2009
is now losing sleep over the turkey/Ambien/Nyquil/Benedryl/Bacardi/Planter's/milk cocktail y'all are trying to serve up. shudder.
it is impossible for this day to be any more of a cluster than it has become at this point. (this was increasingly the sentiment of many days in the 2nd half of '09)
is flummoxed by her sudden increase in snack-related injuries.
has learned there are some things that should not be cooked in the crockpot. (some sort of chicken thing my friend gave me the recipe for)
played a no-holds-barred, cut throat game of Bananagrams tonight.
purchased shallow and pointless hair products online this evening. (I won't lie. it was Bump-its.)
has an ouchie sunburn on her ginormous forehead. sweet.
demon pollen! curses! thou hast smited me with your golden hammer!
June 2009
LOVES it when Southwest dangles a dingfare carrot that misses my travel dates by one day. evil bastards.
am I the only one totally grossed out by those ExtenZe commercials?
thinks everyone should be allowed a lil narcissism and the occasional delusion of grandeur.
Humidty! Curses! All my doors are sticking and my hair is bigger than the doorways. :(
Hon Fest was fun... hon. ;o)
is drinking shots on a school nite just to prove a point. thus far.... unproven point 1: Stephanie 0 (Summer '09 Alcohol Odyssey continues...)
dying to sucker punch everyone I know who is on vacation right now. i don't get no stinking vacation this year. pout. whine.
feeling crappy...certain ppl better not have given me swine flu (met friends in DC for nite of fun - 48 hrs later they had a confirmed case of the pig flu. aiieeee!)
July 2009
feeling marginally better - probably just hayfever like I originally suspected. But is it possible to get a mild case of H1N1? Like the Piglet Flu?
anyone care to join my support group? "Sad Chumps Who Are Spending July 3 Between Cubicle Walls" (I was really bitter about this)
Weekend on Solomon's Island wasn't enough to recharge the batteries. Need at least a week or two... or maybe four... I should have four weeks' vacation shouldn't I? YEAH, I should! (Solomon's w/ Mr. Cake was really nice though. I really am a bitcher and moaner, aren't I?)
thought it was Wednesday most of the day.... the discovery that its only Tuesday is a sad epiphany indeed.
August 2009
Is a slamdunk in Teen Jeopardy much of a victory when you're pushing 36?
anxiously awaiting a call about axle replacement... how much can that cost? I mean REALLY? (it really cost THAT much)
An epic treasure hunt? I like the sound of that. (I had read about a treasure hunt hosted by some distillery back in the '70s)
Anyone know how much a weekend @ Shepard Pratt costs? And do they have any mental health programs that include cocktails & foot rubs? No reason... just askin' for a friend. ;o) (my summer really was quite stressful. Little did I know.)
"When plans fail, blaze new trails." Thank you Magic Hat bottlecap.
September 2009
Back from Sactown. It was a lovely wedding! (it really was)
Hello beer. tonight you light up my life. you are the wind beneath my wings. the day to my night. the oh so right to my so, so wrong. please don't change a thing. (someone gave me crap about this post. I replied "but you haven't heard my ode to vodka!")
It was a good day. (one out of 364 ain't bad I s'pose. haha!)
two words: bubblegum vodka. (omg. yes. it really is that good.)
October 2009
is losing her voice. Many now have cause for celebration.
is a french press convert. adios, Mr. Coffee.
(the irony in my Oct posts is that you would never known I had walked through the 10th circle of hell without coming up for air. 2009 in summary sucked for this very reason. But 2009 taught me a lot about myself. And I'm proud of that.)
November 2009
i am a rock. i am an island. (and I was exhausted. I don't even remember November 2009)
December 2009
snow. feh.
Someone pressed >>FFWD on my 2009 mix tape... somewhere around the "June" track.
(That about sums it up.)
New year, new ideals.
It should be no suprise that 2009 whipped by like Usain Bolt on speed. My final Facebook status for the year said "Someone pressed >>FFWD on my 2009 mix tape... somewhere around the "June" track." But I'm over it. Its a new year. No point in masturbating over the fact that 2009 was what it was.
2010 didn't start out as much. I didn't really even make any resolutions. Although in the last few days I have slowing begun crafting some plans. As always, I have the good intention to simplify my life. To wit, just today I refrained from purchasing the beautiful Michael Kors Sloan boots that are featured for 60% off at 6PM.com. Roll your eyes if you must but this is a huge step for me. I had them in the shopping cart. I took them out. I put them back in. Then I remembered I'm actually broke. Shush. It totally counts as fulfilling my simplification resultion if I didn't actually buy them. Update (1/19/10): Ok, so I have an incredibly weak constitution and I will NEVER learn. The boots went on sale for 75% off. So I bought them. They arrived today and I don't like them afterall. I'm returning them and will be out about $20 in shipping. Bad Stephanie! Bad!
Most importantly I'm committed to writing and creating this year. No excuses. No big dreams. Just down and dirty work. I can do it. I know I can, I just need an attitude adjustment about it. For all of 2009 (and most of 2008 for that matter) I dreamed about the "perfect project" and then whined about being too busy to execute. But, I write and create because I NEED to. Because its my purpose. And I have gotten derailed. To wit, I feel purposelessness. And no one likes that. Especially me.
The dull, barfy, douchey stuff I write for work and the utter void of creativity in my life can't continue to sustain me. Its not fair and I simply won't stand for it. I do have to admit that I get a little spark everytime a certain salesperson tells me the edits I make to his sales letters have resulted in something spectacular. But I will never be a copywriter. My soul won't allow it.
And finally, I will refrain from peppering my musings with things like "to wit...." Starting... now.
2010 didn't start out as much. I didn't really even make any resolutions. Although in the last few days I have slowing begun crafting some plans. As always, I have the good intention to simplify my life. To wit, just today I refrained from purchasing the beautiful Michael Kors Sloan boots that are featured for 60% off at 6PM.com. Roll your eyes if you must but this is a huge step for me. I had them in the shopping cart. I took them out. I put them back in. Then I remembered I'm actually broke. Shush. It totally counts as fulfilling my simplification resultion if I didn't actually buy them. Update (1/19/10): Ok, so I have an incredibly weak constitution and I will NEVER learn. The boots went on sale for 75% off. So I bought them. They arrived today and I don't like them afterall. I'm returning them and will be out about $20 in shipping. Bad Stephanie! Bad!
Most importantly I'm committed to writing and creating this year. No excuses. No big dreams. Just down and dirty work. I can do it. I know I can, I just need an attitude adjustment about it. For all of 2009 (and most of 2008 for that matter) I dreamed about the "perfect project" and then whined about being too busy to execute. But, I write and create because I NEED to. Because its my purpose. And I have gotten derailed. To wit, I feel purposelessness. And no one likes that. Especially me.
The dull, barfy, douchey stuff I write for work and the utter void of creativity in my life can't continue to sustain me. Its not fair and I simply won't stand for it. I do have to admit that I get a little spark everytime a certain salesperson tells me the edits I make to his sales letters have resulted in something spectacular. But I will never be a copywriter. My soul won't allow it.
And finally, I will refrain from peppering my musings with things like "to wit...." Starting... now.
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